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Writer's Block: Toys in the attic [08 Mar 2011|12:09pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

Did you have a favorite toy as a child that you took with you everywhere? If so, what was it and what happened to it?

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My favorite toy is a stuffed polar bear that my Grandmother bought for me when I was in my mom's belly and she used to take the bear and talk to my mother's stomach with it.My grandmother was my best friend and she recently died in Dec.I sleep with this bear every single night and he has been on every single vacation with me and I am 24 years old this year lol.
die tonight for love.

where in the fuckity fuck have i been??? [21 Jan 2011|12:59pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

No one reads this shit so idk why the fuck I'm posting....umm grammie died the day after christmas,papa died in august.2010 sucked balls.Sunny's in jail again,chris dated ash,they just broke up.Mike's living with me.Shane's awesome but never fuckin texts me or anything.ummm nothing else to say.TGIF getcha pull!

die tonight for love.

PROJEKT REVOLUTION!! [25 Aug 2007|06:38pm]
[ mood | excited ]

GOING TO SEE HIM TOMORROW AT THE MEADOWS AMONG MANY OTHER GOOD BANDS. I KNOW YOU ARE ALL JEALOUS MUAHAHAHAHA.


=)

4 would die tonight for love.

damn its been a long time. [16 Aug 2007|02:50pm]
[ mood | content ]

I doubt anyone ever even checks my livejournal anymore because I don't really post anything,just read the communities.

Sooo yeah,life's been boring.Working at Shaw's and going to school to be a paralegal.

Nothing interesting cept I'm 20 now.Thank God I'll be 21 this May.YAYYY.

That is all cuz I can't think of anythign worthwhile to type in here.

Thx=)

die tonight for love.

WHOOHOO [04 May 2006|04:01pm]
[ mood | content ]

MY 19TH BDAY IS SUNDAY!

5 would die tonight for love.

Fuckin gay ass day. [07 Mar 2006|12:49am]
[ mood | hungry ]

Wow I just realized it's March.Been pukin all day and realized I haven't updated.Sunny is a faggot.Kicked him out he beat the crap out of me.So byebye to crackheads.

Met a kid named Rolie he's cool.Brought me to a monster truck show.Quit Dunkin,still an alcoholic.
Mikey and Matt didn't come.That sucked.

Found out hot Bill who comes into Dunkin had a band,Nomad and went to see them with Rolie and Johnny V.

Anthony's nuts.Stayed there for like a week.Christian's still a mooch.

HIM is still amazing,duh!Valentine's day was good but gay cuz didn't see Rolie.Ant,me,Jeff,Billy,and Mike went to the bar.Ant's parents love me and want us to get married lol.Went to Moehegan Sun cuz the 2 of us were bored one night.Got a cool martini glass.Went to alot of bars with our friends and his parents.He flipped and did the bailing thing again cuz he can't handle me.Haven't seen him in a week cuz he wants me to not drink cuz it's killing him.

But I love my vodka.

Hangin out with Chris Irzyk lately he's a crazy alcoholic too whom I made join livejournal.Hah.

1 would die tonight for love.

gay survey again [07 Mar 2006|12:22am]
[ mood | sick ]

a long survey so tell me whats crackin

Created by babygirlskye2002 and taken 252 times on Bzoink

BASICS ABOUT CHU
NAMEStephanie Anna Sobieski
BIRTHDAYMay 7th 1987
AGE18
EYE AND HAIR COLORone blue one green,red
SHOE SIZE8
PETSdoggie cheyenne
PIERCINGScartilage,belly button,2 holes in each ear
TATTOOSnot yet
NICKNAMESsteff,steffie,peng
CAR YOU DRIVEhah none
SIBLINGSlil sis ashley
BIRTHPLACEmeriden,ct
GLASSES OR CONTACTSnope
ZODIASIGNtaurus
HEIGHT5'6"
WEIGHTtoo much
GENDERfemale
STAIGHT/GAY/BIstraight altho some think im gay lol
MADEN NAMEsobieski
HAVE YOU EVER OR DO YOU
EATING DISORDERnah
HAVE KIDSNO
TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDEyes
PIERCE A BODY PART YOUR SELFnah
BEEN IN JAILnope
CRIED DURING A MOVIEyes
BROKEN A BONEyes my arm
BEEN IN LOVEyep
GOTTEN DETENTIONlol
HATED SOMEONEdefinitly
HAD A STALKERyea
HAD YOUR HEART BROKENyea
THOUGHT YOU WERE GOING CRAZYall the time
GOTTEN IN A FIGHTyep
RAN AWAY FROM HOMEyep to new york
STOLEDand got caught
SWORE AT YOUR PARENTShaha fuck yah
CURSED AT A TEACHERyep
EVER DYED YOUR HAIRall the time
IF SO WHAT COLORred
BROKEN THE LAWuh huh
HAD AN AFFAIRi guess u can say that
WRITTEN A POEMprob but im not emo
FINISHED SCHOOLyeah
FLUNKED A GRADEclose but no
GOTTEN PREGNANTnah
GET MAD EASILYwhen im drunk
CELL PHONEdont got one
HAD SEXlol nah im a virgin
3 SOMEno way
SPINE THE BOTTLEuh huh
GOTTEN GROUNDEDnah
KILLED A FROGnope
PLAYED DEADnah
GOTTEN SUSPENDEDyep smokin
PLAYED DING DONG DITCHnope
BEEN TO A WEDDINGyes sir
BEEN TO A FUNERALsadly yes
HAVE BAD HABITSdrinkin too much
DO YOU
DRINKof course
SMOKEyes
CUSSfuck yes
USE DRUGSnah
SUFFER FROM DEPRESSIONi dont think so
GET ALONG WITH FAMILYsorta
DRIVEnope
HAVE A JOBlol i dont kno maybe
FRIENDZ
WHO ARE/ IS YOUR BEST FRIENDAnt,Mikey
WHO IS THE LOUDESTjeff
SMARTESTrolie
SHYESTmikey
FUNNIESTirzyk
PRETTIESTblanca
PREPPIESTmikey
NERDIESTme
LOUDESTu asked this one already
WEIRDESTirzyk
NICESTant
SLUTTIESTlol mikey
CLOSESTant
DO YOU HAVE ANY GAY OR LESBIAN FRIENDSprob tho they wont admit it
WHO YOU FIGHT WITH THE MOSTanthony
WHO IS YOUR 2ND FAMILYants and mikes
DO YOU HAVE MORE GUY OR GIRL FRIENDSguy
HAVE YOU EVER HAD A FRIEND DIEyes
DRUGGIEmike
ALCOHOLICme
LAST PERSON
CALLEDmy sis
TEXT YOUant
EMAILED YOUmyspace?irzyk
YELL ATant
HUGGED YOUirzyk
KISSED YOUirzyk
TURNED YOU ONlol
THAT BROKE YOUR HEARTant
FAVORITES
COLORred
NUMBER12
YEAR1987
ANIMALpenguin
MOVIEhmm idk
RELATIVEuncle ben
SONGbetween heaven and hell-BLS
CANDY BARim 2 fat for candy
VIDEO GAMEdonkey kong bitches
FOOTBALL TEAMdallas cowboys
BASKETBALL TEAMhate the sport
VEGETABLEcarrots
FRUITwatermelon
SODAdiet coke with lime
HOBBIEdrinkin
PERSONville valo
RESTAURANTrainforest cafe
SKOOL
LAST SCHOOL YOU ATTENDEDplatt
SCHOOL COLORSidk
FAVORITE SUBJECT
WORST SUBJECT
FAVORITE TEACHER
WORST TEACHER
PRIVATE OR PUBLIC
HOW MANY SKOOLS YOU HAVE ATTENDED
DID OR DO YOU PLAY ANY SPORTS
YOUR VIEW ON
ABORTIONpro choice
THE LAW TO LEGALIZE MARIJUANAdo it up
ALCOHOLlove it
DRUGSnah
EDUCATIONget one
MURDERbad
RASCISMfuckin niggers
SCHOOLgo
SEXhave lots of it
GAY/BISEXUALwhatever tickles ur pickle
LOVE lIFE
ARE YOU TAKENnope
NAME
HOW LONG YA BEEN TOGETHER
WHERE DID YA MEET
DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE ELSE
THERE NAME
FIRST LOVEmike
WOULD YOU RATHER MAKE LOVE OR FUCKmake love
DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHTnah lust
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN CALLED A WHORE OR SLUTlol yea
A GUY WITH NICE EYESshawn
NICE SMILEmike
NICE ASSlol
FUNNYirzyk
GREAT PERSONALITYant
FRIENDS BROTHERmatt
EX BOYFRIENDsunny
HORNYmatt
SEXYdont wanna say
SMALLrolie def.
HOTTEST EXmikey
RUDEST EXchristian
THIS OR THAT
ROCK OR HEAVY METALheavy metal
R&B HIPHOP OR RAPneither thats gay shit
COUNTRY OR BLUEGRASScountry
BLUE OR PURPLEblue
BLACK OR WHITEblack
A WALK TO REMEMBER OR CROSSROADSboth fag shit
SLEEPY HOLLOW OR THE HOLLOWsleepy hollow
USHER OR NELLYhomos
FRESH PRINCE OR FAMILY MATTERSNEITHER!!
FULL HOUSE OR SAVED BY THE BELLfull house
MARLBORO OR NEWPORTmarbs im white
CATS OR DOGScats
BANANA OR APPLESapples
PLUMS OR GRAPESgrapes
MONEY OR HAPPINESShappiness
ADIDAS OR NIKESadidas
NOTORIOUS BIG OR TUPACneither
HUGS OR DRUGhugs
LOVE OR LUSTlove
WORDS ASSOCIATION
BEDpan
LIGHTer
LIFEdeath
DEALTHmy liver
BLUEeye
GREENlimes
REDmy hair
LOVEsucks
HATEme
MONEYwant some
GUYfriend
PEOPLEsuck
PROSITUTIONhah
SKYEvodka
CLOUDStrippy

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die tonight for love.

DRUNK=) [21 Feb 2006|10:53am]

Long survery all about YOU

Created by str8upqt34 and taken 137 times on Bzoink

First NameStephanie
Middle NameAnna
BirthdayMay 7th 1987
EyesOne blue one green
HairRed
Favorite colorRed
day or nightNight
Fave foodMy spicy soup
would you change your name?Yes
do you like anyone?Yes
which friend is most like you?Anthony
whos the loudest?Paul
who have you known the longest?Mikey and Mattie
whos shyest?Anthony
are you close to you family?sorta
when did u cry the most?when mikey didnt see me
ran away from home?yes
pictured crush naked?yes
skipped school?yes
broken someones heart?yes
been in love?yes
cried when someone died?yes
wanted someone u couldnt have?yes
done something embarrassing?yes
done a drug?yes
cried in school?yes
whos ur good luck charm?Rolie
who do you hate most?Mikey
best memory?When Rolie and I had a laughing fit.
fav ice cream?Coffee
who makes u laugh most?Rolie
who makes u smile?Mikey
do u have a crush on someone?Yes
have u fallen for ur best friend?YES
made out with just a friend?Yes
kissed 2 ppl in one day?Yes
been rejected?Yes
been in love?YES
been used?Yes
done something u regret?Yes
cheated on someone?Yes
been called a tease?Yes
last person you touched:Anthony
last person you talked to:Ashley my sis
you hugged:Anthony
you IMed:Jeff
you kissed:Anthony
texted you:Anthony
who broke ur heart:Rolie
who said they loved u:Anthony
first person u talked to:Anthony
black or white?white
pizza or icecream?pizza
apples or oranges?apples
jeans or shorts?jeans
beach or bed?beach
comedy or horror?comedy
cd or radio?cd
couch or bed?bed
cat or dog?cat
do u smoke?yes
how many times have u been drunk?im an alcoholic lol u figure it out
dumped?a few
punched something?alot
what color is ur shirt right now?purple
pants?grey
know anyone famous?nope
if so.. who?
whos ur best guy friendAnthony
who was ur first kiss?Richard Vasquez
where was it?Behind a big ass rock
how many siblings do u have?1
what time did u wake up this morning?7:45am
nicknames?Steff,Steffie,Pengie,Hot stuff
height?5'6"??
piercings?belly button,cartilage in each ear,2 lobe piercings in each ear
been TPing?yes
been in a car accident?yesssssssss
fav day of the week?Friday
fav flower?rose
warner bros or disney?disney
believe in magic?yes
what are u listening to now?Speed-Montgomery Gentry
would u have sex b4 marriage?been there done that
who do u talk to most?Anthony
do u trust ppl easily?NOOOO
do u like to dance?yes
do u like to travel?yes
are u spoiled?yesss
been dumped?yes
do u have a cell?nope
do u like water?no
do u have a curfew?no
are u a role model?no
what brand name do u wear most?Hot topic??
do u like taking pics?yes
are u tan?hahahhahahaha nooo way
do u like getting dirrty?nope
do u cry a lot?yessss
whats ur most overused phrase?What happened?
when was the last time u were at a party?Saturday?
when was the last time u gave a lapdance?never
whats ur biggest fear?being shot
fav band?HIm and Black label society
fav energy drink?Diet coke with lime

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die tonight for love.

[21 Feb 2006|10:34am]
[ mood | drunk ]

One of the last times I was happy was when Ant,Jeff and, I were sitting in Jeff's truck outside of Friendly's in North Haven and it was the first time I ever heard "In This River"-Black Label Society.We were silent and it was amazing.I love those boys more than anything.I wanna be in my happy place again...

die tonight for love.

i love surveys!!!!!!!!!!!! [12 Feb 2006|08:14pm]
Really Long Survey (over 200)
What is your name?:Stephanie
Are you named after anyone?:My deceased grandmother whom I have never met
What's your screename?:brokenzoejane
Would you name a child of yours after you?:Yes
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:Clint...moms choice
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:Dawn
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?:Nope
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:Yes
Basics
Your gender::Female
Straight/Gay/Bi::Straight
Single?:Sorta
If not, do you want to be?:I want to be attached
Birthdate::5-7-87
Your age::18
Age you act::23
Age you wish you were::At least 21
Your height::5'6"
Eye color::one blue one green depends on lighting
Happy with it?:Yes
Hair color::Dyed red
Happy with it?:Hell yeah
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous::Righty
Your living arrangement::Mom dad sister dog
Your family::?
Have any pets?:dog
Whats your job?:dunkin donuts =(
Piercings?:Bellybutton,2 holes in each ear and 1 cartilage in each ear
Tattoos?:not yet
Obsessions?:men,vodka,sex and the city,internet,gilmore girls
Addictions?:vodka,men
Do you speak another language?:some spanish,very little french and italian
Have a favorite quote?:Your pretty face is going to hell
Do you have a webpage?:http://www.myspace.com/steffiepoo
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?:i suppose
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:Yes very
Do you have any secrets?:Yes
Do you hate yourself?:Sometimes
Do you like your handwriting?:Nope
Do you have any bad habits?:Drinking,smoking,clearing my throat
What is the compliment you get from most people?:I have nice eyes.
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:My so called life
What's your biggest fear?:Dying
Can you sing?:Not good
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:no
Are you a loner?:no
What are your #1 priorities in life?:Finding love,having a family,gettin a good career that I enjoy
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:yes
Are you a daredevil?:no
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:my forehead,my drinking too much
Are you passive or agressive?:mostly passive
Do you have a journal?:yes
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:strength-i have hope weakness-i don't stick up for myself
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?:I wouldn't be an alcoholic
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:no
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:yes don't wanna say
Do you think life has been good so far?:i guess
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:Don't trust neone
What do you like the most about your body?:My eyes
And least?:my stomach and forehead
Do you think you are good looking?:no
Are you confident?:no
What is the fictional character you are most like?:angela chase from my so called life
Are you perceived wrongly?:yes
Do You...
Smoke?:yes
Do drugs?:only pot occasionally
Read the newspaper?:yes
Pray?:yes
Go to church?:rarely
Talk to strangers who IM you?:yes
Sleep with stuffed animals?:yes
Take walks in the rain?:only with someone else
Talk to people even though you hate them?:yes
Drive?:nope
Like to drive fast?:yes
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?:no
Hurt yourself?:yes
Been out of the country?:no
Eaten something that made other people sick?:no
Been in love?:yea
Done drugs?:yes
Gone skinny dipping?:yes
Had a medical emergency?:yes
Had surgery?:no
Ran away from home?:yes
Played strip poker?:no
Gotten beaten up?:no
Beaten someone up?:no
Been picked on?:yes
Been on stage?:yes
Slept outdoors?:yes
Thought about suicide?:yes
Pulled an all nighter?:no
If yes, what is your record?:
Gone one day without food?:yes
Talked on the phone all night?:no
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?:yes
Slept all day?:yes
Killed someone?: no
Made out with a stranger?:yes
Had sex with a stranger?:yes
Thought you're going crazy?:yes
Kissed the same sex?:yes
Done anything sexual with the same sex?:yes
Been betrayed?:yes
Had a dream that came true?:yes
Broken the law?:yes
Met a famous person?:yes
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:no
On purpose?:no
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?:yes
Stolen anything?:yes
Been on radio/tv?:yes
Been in a mosh-pit?:yes
Had a nervous breakdown?:yes
Bungee jumped?:no
Had a dream that kept coming back?:yes
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?:no
Miracles?:yes
Astrology?:yes
Magic?:yes
God?:yes
Satan?:yes
Santa?:no
Ghosts?:yes
Luck?:yes
Love at first sight?:yes
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:yes
Witches?:yes
Easter bunny?:no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:no
Do you wish on stars?:yes
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:yes
Do you think God has a gender?:no
Do you believe in organized religion?:yes
Where do you think we go when we die?:heaven or hell
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:yes
Who is your best friend?:anthony
Who's the one person that knows most about you?:mikey
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:Make sure your happy before you worry about anyone else.Your the most important thing to yourself.-Rolie
Your favourite inside joke?:He looks like he could use some bananas.
Thing you're picked on most about?:being too pale
Who's your longest known friend?:Mikey and mattie
Newest?:Rolie
Shyest?:Anthony
Funniest?:Rolie
Sweetest?:Rolie
Closest?:Anthony
Weirdest?:Daniele
Smartest?:Rolie
Ditziest?:Justine
Friends you miss being close to the most?:Mikey
Last person you talked to online?:Anthony
Who do you talk to most online?:Anthony
Who are you on the phone with most?:Anthony and Rolie
Who do you trust most?:Rolie
Who listens to your problems?:Anthony,Rolie,Mikey,Mattie,Blanca
Who do you fight most with?:Anthony
Who's the nicest?:Rolie
Who's the most outgoing?:Rolie
Who's the best singer?:Blanca
Who's on your shit-list?:Mikey
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?:Yes
Who's your second family?:Anthony's andMikey's
Do you always feel understood?:no
Who's the loudest friend?:Mattie
Do you trust others easily?:No
Who's house were you last at?:Anthony's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in::Rolies
Do your friends know you?:yes
Friend that lives farthest away::Mikey and Mattie
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?:no
What do you find romantic?:buying sweet things,running fingers through hair,cuddling,looking into each other's eyes
Turn-on?:that smile they get before ur about to yanno
Turn-off?:bad teeth
First kiss?:behind a rock,he liked my lip gloss lol
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?:special
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going:knowing them before
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out:yes
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv:no
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:yes
What is best about the opposite sex?:they can be really sweet
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:they can lie
What's the last present someone gave you?:a fender hoodie
Are you in love?:yes
Do you consider your significant other hot?:yes
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?:mikey
You wanted to kill?:dianna
That you laughed at?:anthony
That laughed at you?:anthony
That turned you on?:rolie
You went shopping with?:christian
That broke your heart?:sunny
To disappoint you?:anthony
To ask you out?:rolie
To make you cry?:rolie
To brighten up your day?:rolie
That you thought about?:rolie
You saw a movie with?:rolie
You talked to on the phone?:anthony
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:anthony
You saw?:bob
You lost?:mikey
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:tryin to
Will it be with your significant other?:prob eventually
Or some random person?:no
What are you wearing right now?:rolies pj pants,dead shirt
Body part you're touching right now::none
What are you worried about right now?:rolie gettin back with his ex,me gettin fired,anthony not picking me up tonight,not havin enough vodka
What book are you reading?:harry potter and the goblet of fire
What's on your mousepad?:a kitten
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling::worried,depressed,bored,drunk,lonely
Are you bored?:yes
Are you tired?:yes
Are you talking to anyone online?:no
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?:no
Are you lonely or content?:lonely
Are you listening to music?:no
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die tonight for love.

[08 Feb 2006|11:48am]
[ mood | drunk ]

Music Shuffle
Put your mp3 player on shuffle, and list the first ten songs.

First Song:: Black Label Society-Between Heaven and Hell
Second Song:: Lips of an Angel-Hinder
Third Song:: Better than Me-Hinder
Fourth Song:: Good Times-Tommy Lee
Fifth Song:: Demise of Sanity-Black Label Society
Sixth Song:: In This River-Black label Society
Seventh Song:: Forever-Kiss
Eight Song:: Spoke in the Wheel-Black Label Society
Ninth Song:: Gasolina-Daddy Yankee
Tenth Song:: Venus in our blood-HIM

Time to see what they mean to you!

Who does song 1 remind you of?: a guy
What part of your life does song 2 describe the best?: when i realized how great of a friend this guy was and wants the best for me
If you could dedicate song 3 to someone, who would it be?: a guy
Does Song 4's lyrics mean anything to you personally?: yes,describes how i wanna get the fuck away and not be cold cuz this world sucks,take me away to the fuckin bar wherre everyones happy and drunk!! lol
Why do you like song 5?: it reminds me of riding in ant's truck motherfuckin everything,knowing we're going crazy and gonna drink some motherfuckin beer
When did you first start listening to the artist of song 6?: 5 years ago,the day i got my belly button pierced
How many albums do you have from the artist of song 7?: none.
How are number 8 and 9 similar?: haha in no way at all,one makes me wanna dance the other makes me wanna drink and cry
What is number 10's meaning?: people have such an effect on u its like theyre in ur bloooood
What song out of the 10 is your favorite?: between heaven and hell-black label society
What song out of the 10 is your least in this river-black label society...song written for the legend DIMEBAG DARRYL ABBOTT,plus the lyrics are just so meaningful i love it.
Would you dedicate any of these to your love/crush?: everyone cept 5 and 9
Would you dedicate any of these to your enemy?: nah
Do these top ten songs fairly reflect your music collection?: definitly,mostly black label society and him

die tonight for love.

=) [12 Dec 2005|04:43pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

die tonight for love.

Whole lotta nothin. [20 Sep 2005|09:35pm]
[ mood | determined ]

Nothing interesting to report.

Have been spending more time with Sunny.

He surprised me and showed up at my work today,it was nice.We got to take a little nap together.

Mikey told me he's gonna be here for Christmas therefore,I am on a mission to get skinny and pretty (somehow) by December.So I am on a diet and I exercise everyday like a good soon to be not fat girl.

Sorry so short but hey who the hell reads this crap neways?LOL.

That's all folks.

die tonight for love.

OOOOMMMGGGGGG [11 Sep 2005|06:02pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN MY SISTER AND I HAVE JUST PURCHASED TO TICKETS TO SEE HIM,FINCH,AND SKINDRED ON NOV.18TH IN NEW YORK.I AM GONNA SEE HIM!!!I JUST PEED MY PANTS.

Update more later.

4 would die tonight for love.

This shit is bananas... [09 Sep 2005|09:52pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

So today I went to work still drunk from the night before.It was hell lol.Nothing spectacular happened.

Got dropt off at an AA meeting in New Haven to see Sunny.We didn't go in right away and walked with some of his friends to Dunkin Donuts and a packie.We were only in the meeting for like 5 minutes and got our papers signed to show we were there and shit.

Tomorrow when he gets a pass he's gonna get my name tattooed.I will be surprised if it actually happens though.

Anyways,mad people came up to me from the place where Sunny's at telling me how much he talks about me and all that.It was cute =).And at the end he took off his shirt and gave it to me cuz he doused it with his cologne so I could sleep in it and it would smell like him.We have a habit of switching things or giving each other something that smells like the other one.It's cute.I just dunno what I'm gonna bring him tomorrow haha.Something that doesn't make him look even gayer to his friends considering that he already showed up back at the place in a small ass Hollister girls shirt carrying a CareBear hahahaa.Aweee my baby loves me.

die tonight for love.

stupid doctors.... [08 Sep 2005|12:26am]
[ mood | tired ]

So yesterday at around 2:45 I get woken up to a phone call from Sunny whose at Yale-New Haven hospital yet again.He went to the clinician who said he has a viral spine infection.He was scared as hell cuz he was in the ER all by himself.So I told him to call me later and I got outta bed and made arrangements to get to the hospital and I called outta work.My dad brought me and dropt me off outside of the ER.

I walked in and didn't see him so I just sat in the waiting room for a few minutes before I grew the balls to go and ask the guy at the information desk.Just as I was saying Sunny's name,out of the ER walks Sunny.He snuck out cuz he just felt like he should go have a cig at that time.How ironic.He was sooo surprised and sooooo incredibly happy that I came to be with him.He kept telling me that all night.I walked down to Sam's to get him an ice cream and a coffee and we just chilled in the ER waiting.They took chest xrays and did ultra sounds on his legs and everything was fine.So they still dunno what the hell is wrong with him.We got discharged around 10pm.I was quite drunk cuz I brought some with me lol.After we got discharged we went to Walgreens and just sat outside the ER talking.

But it was getting late so he had to call me a cab and get back to the rehab center.Apparently I almost burnt the house down last night too cuz I was cooking something and passed out on the couch.

Went to lunch at Applebees with the parentals.Worked 6-midnight.Had a couple of visitors at work.Got hit on quite a few times.It was flattering lol.Got yelled at by my friend for having hickies.

Tired as all hell and missing my baby.So now I'm gunna go play Neopets and than go to sleep cuddling with his shirt like he is with mine.

die tonight for love.

Best fuckin day I've had in a long long long time. [06 Sep 2005|02:56am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

WELL,Sadly I had to work from 6am till 2 today.Around 10 I get a call from Cheryl(Sunny's mom) and she's like "Guess what?Liz called me and I'm taking the kids for a couple hours today."I was like um ok thats cool for you.And she said she wanted me to get a ride down there to spend some time with her and them cuz her house was having a picnic.So I was estastic since I haven't seen the kids in forever and told her I'd come.

Sunny called when I got out of work right as I was bout to call him and I told him I was gonna be in New Haven so he decided to wait to go to the hospital for his swollen ankles yet again until I got to New Haven.

So when I got to New Haven I called Cheryl and told her to come outside with the kids.I was so scared they weren't gonna remember me or be really shy around me.But Ray Ray came running to me and I picked him up and kissed him and Amber wasn't acting shy or anything different.I missed them so much.There were so many damn bees around though I thought at least one of us was going to get stung but luckily that didn't happen.There are some stray cats runnin around outside her place so the kids brought me to see them and some guy came up to me and said they looked like me and if they were mine.LOL.I was like no these are my boyfriend's kids.And Cheryl was introducing me to everyone and said me and Sunny were engaged.Haha.Jumpin the gun a little there even though Sunny tells her all the time that I'm her future daughter-in-law.

So I called Sunny cuz Cheryl wanted to see if we could stop by there with the kids on the way to bring them home.Of course it was fine with him so we went over to the rehab place where he's at and he came into the lobby.Oh man,the kids were so happy.Sunny almost started crying.They didn't want him to leave.But thankfully,no crying when we had to drag them away.

After we left Grant Street we had to drop off the kids at their mother's house.They both hugged me and gave me kisses and stuff so I know that they haven't gotten shy or anything around me and still love me thank god.Cuz Ray Ray is very very shy and for him to come running up to me and let me pick him up and give me kisses is only shit he does with his daddy or grandma.

So I was supposed to wait at the Dunkin Donuts near the Yale Emergency room for Sunny to get dropt off at the hospital cuz he wanted me to stay with him.And basically that was the only way we could spend any time together cuz he knew they'd let me in cuz he'd tell them I was his wife and if he stayed overnight I was gonna stay with him.So while I was waiting,I got some lunch at Subway.I was starving cuz I hadn't eaten all day.He called when he got to the ER and I brought him a coffee and we got him all signed in and shit.I really didn't think it would take that long.I ran to the other part of the hospital while he waited to hear if they called his name.So I stocked up on Cheerios and milk in the cafeteria and saw a gift shop so of course I had to go in there and get shit just in case we were staying overnight.I got some candy and shit for us to read and a Grumpy care bear that I couldn't resist lol.

We got to the hospital and checked in and shit at like 6pm.We didn't even get called in until like 11:30-midnight.Some big motorcycle accident happened so there were mad ambulances and shit coming in.Sunny had to keep running down the street to get me advil or a sub or coffee or a freakin spoon for my Cheerios haha.Smoked a buncha cigs and talked for hours.He's getting my name tattooed on his chest above the sun.Anyway I want it written and any design I want him to get with it.I had to wear the ring he gave me upside down on my ring finger just in case so it looked like we were married which I didn't mind at all.LOL.The entire night he just kept telling me how much he loves me and all that cute mushy stuff.When I got a headache he waddled on his swollen feet to the store to buy me advil.When I wanted a spoon he waddled down to Subway for that and to get me a sandwich.When I was tired and cold he asked the people for a blanket and held me while I slept.And the cutest thing was when we were laying on the stretcher together he put his arms around me and told me to go to sleep (cuz he knew I was freaked out by being in the middle of all these sick people and needles and blood and ahhhh) and he would stay awake and not let anything happen to me cuz I'm safe in his arms and made sure I wasn't scared.awwwwwwwwwwww.

When we finally got called in we just laid on the stretcher together since they didn't put us in a room or anything.They only took blood and shit.We fell asleep quite a few times.It was great to just lay there with him.That man loveeeeeeeeees me so much hehehehehe.I know he was extremely happy that I got my ass allll the way to New Haven to see his mom and kids and stayed in an emergency room laying down on a stretcher with him for that long.

Well they ended up not admitting him.They have no idea what the hell is wrong.He's gonna go see his doctor tomorrow and follow up with a buncha bloodwork and shit.By the time we got discharged,it was like 2:30.He called me a cab and is gonna send me like 100$ in the mail for my nails and a few bucks we were short on the cab and just spending money.Right before I got into the cab though,I sprayed my Grumpy Bear with my Tommy Girl cuz he wanted to take it with him and smell it cuz it smells like my scent and we switched shirts right there outside of the ER LOL!He put on my tight ass white hollister button thing and I put on his oversized long sleeve shirt cuz he wanted us to have something that smells like the other person to sleep with.I can't believe he actually put on my shirt.Even the cab lady was laughing at it hahahaha.

I can't believe I actually took a cab.The lady was nice as hell.Some black chick,she was funny.

My day was well spent and everything went beautifully.I am in loooooooooove with this man.

K I'm EXHAUSTED and yucky from New Haven stench haha.

Good freakin nite.

die tonight for love.

ughh [03 Sep 2005|08:10pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

So I wake up to Christian standing over me a little pissed cuz I was sleeping and didn't hear the phone ring so he had to use my spare key to get in the house and I decide to check my voice mail to see who was calling from a number I don't know.Turns out it's Sunny and he's in Yale-New Haven emergency room because his legs are fucked up from the knee down and he can't even walk.Which means he's prob gonna have to have the back surgery that he's been avoiding since it'll mean he won't be able to work for like 6 months.He has like 4 dislocated disks in his back.

So yeah he wants me to get a ride down to New Haven.Hah.Yah ok lemme just do that real quick.I'm sure tons of people will volunteer to bring me especially since the gas prices are so high now.His mom just called so at least I know someone's with him.She wants me to go there and keep her company but no one will bring me.

So now I'm gunna go shower away the stench of Dunkin Donuts and than drink myself to death.lol.

die tonight for love.

Just got back from the doctors... [02 Sep 2005|04:42pm]
[ mood | sore ]

Well my doctor didn't know what was wrong cept it could be my spleen.So they sent me for xrays whcih came up negative.I may now have to go for an ultrasound to see if they find anything through that.Maybe it's just a pulled muscle after all.Hopefully it is.

Doing nothing at the moment.Waiting for Christian to come over and hang out and watch my Season 1 Roseanne Dvd that my dad just picked me up.YAYYYYY.I know he's excited haha.

die tonight for love.

Yayy for the boyfriend =) [01 Sep 2005|11:14pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

So today Sunny came to my work and picked me up around 2 with his mom and her friend since they left him out for a few hours to get his clothes from his bro's.I was soo fuckin nervous,cuz now I don't see him on a regular basis so it's like butterflys in the stomach and shit.When I saw him pull up I started jumpin around like I used to cuz I was sooo excited it was great.

So we went to Shawn's to get Sunny and I's clothes from the basement.Shawn was actually there,which was surprising,workin on the yard.The house he fixed up looks real nice.He's got this weird thing where he stares at you into your eyes and it freaks me out so I tried not to look at him lol.We found so much of my shit that I forgot about,including my preeeeetty underwear lol.Just had to throw that in.

Anyways,Sunny wrote me a letter that he hasn't sent yet and he told me that we're going somewhere and it's a surprise but since he can't keep a secret from me for shit he told me.In like January,he's in the process of setting shit up so me and him can go to the BAHAMAS!!Whoo fuckin hooo.I'm almost positive he's planning on proposing when we're there cuz he kept saying I will NEVER forget it.So we'll see.

It sucked we only got a little time to spend with each other but he constantly during that short amount of time kept saying how much he loves me and all that so it was nice and I didn't get sad that it was only a short amount of time.He got to come up to my room for a few minutes cuz he had to grab his boots,and he made sure to give me a big old hickey real quick to mark his territory lol.And grabbed some dvd's to watch and a shitload of pics of me and the kids that I have.

Since I have his ring,he kinda hinted at a birthday present I could get him.Cuz I know he feels naked without his ring.So I found this place where I can get a ring and have it inscribed and it will cost me less than like 50 bucks which is peachy cuz I don't have all that much money.Not sure what I'm gonna have it say yet though.

Anyways,I have this horrible pain on my left side in my shoulder and under my left rib which has been there for the last three days.At first I thought it was my liver from the constant drinking I do every freaking day but thankfully my liver it on the right side.It may be a pulled muscle from the violent puking I did the other day from being hungover or an ulcer or sumthing.Who the fuck knows.But I'm gettin it checked out tomorrow.I really hope it has nothing to do with my drinking.

Sunny's on the phone again so I gotta go.

die tonight for love.

aweeeeeee [29 Aug 2005|01:35pm]
[ mood | drunk ]

Ways to get to a girls heart. *or mines :)*

1. Hugs from behind.
2. Grab her hand when you guys walk next to each other.
3. When standing, wrap your arms around her.
4. Cuddle with her.
5. Dont force her to do anything.
6. Write little notes.
7. Compliment her Honestly.
8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
9. Say I love you.....and mean it.
10. Pick her over your friends sometimes.. even if your friends call you stupid or something.
11. comfort her when she cries.
12. love her with all your heart.
13. Pick her up and flirt with her (she'll scream and say put me down but really shes loves it).
14. grab her hand when you guys walk next to eachother.
15. Girls love kisses on the forehead.
16. Always joke with her.

die tonight for love.

[28 Aug 2005|09:44pm]


You Know You Drink Too Much When...


Your doctor finds traces of blood in your alcohol stream.

The back of your head keeps getting hit by the toilet seat.

The parking lot seems to have moved while you were in the bar

When you go to donate blood and they ask what proof?

You think the Four Basic Food Groups are Caffeine, Nicotine, Alcohol, and Hotties.

You have a "happy hour" at home

When you are sober, people ask you what's wrong?

You spend all night making a board game called Alcohol Land

Although you drove home the other night you can't remember how you got home or where you parked your car

"Hi ocifer. I'm not under the affluence of incohol."

Your favorite drink is ethanol.

"Why does everybody think I have a prinking droblem?! - I don't have a prinking droblem!"

"I don't have a drinking prob..pleb..prub.. *hic* Pash me another, tarbender."

You can spend a whole night holding up walls to prevent their (your) collapse.

You instinctively know where the alcohol is in a store you've never been in before

Clubs raise their drink prices because you haven't attended in a while

You think beer and ramen make a good breakfast

You frequently urinate outdoors.

When you first wake up and you're afraid you're gonna die and a half-hour later you're afraid you won't.

You fall asleep taking a dump.

You believe that spilling a beer is alcohol abuse.

You go to the john to hurl, but you take your beer with you.

You find it's easier to study drunk.

You're on a first name basis at the detoxification center.

Beer ads make sense.

You wake up to the sound of your dog drinking out of the toilet and you're so dry that it sounds mighty thirst quenching.

You wake the next morning and start drinking a few of the half empties left sitting around the room.

The space on your driver's license that tells your eye color reads "bloodshot".

You fall down a flight of steps and DON'T spill a drop of your beer.

You mix your cocktails by the litre.

You grow a beard because it stops beer that's running down your chin.

You put off urinating in hopes of reaching that near orgasmic Zen-like piss.

When the bottle says 20 standard drinks but you only get 5.

You spell Alcohol with a capital letter out of respect

You lose arguments with inanimate objects.

You have to hold onto the lawn to keep from falling off the earth

Your career won't progress beyond Senator from Massachusettes.

24 hours in a day, 24 beers in a case - coincidence?? - I think not!

Two hands and just one mouth... - now THAT'S a drinking problem!

"Norm!" is what they say when you enter the bar.

You can focus better with one eye closed

The parking lot seems to have moved while you were in the bar

You fall off the floor.

You discover in the morning that liquid cleaning supplies have mysteriously disappeared.

Hey, 5 beers has just as many calories as a burger, screw dinner!

Beer: it's not just for breakfast anymore.

The glass keeps missing your mouth.

Vampires get woozy after bitting you.

At AA meeting you begin: "Hi, my name is... uh..."

Your idea of cutting back is less seltzer.

You wake up in the bedroom, your underwear is in the bathroom, you fell asleep clothed. - hmm.

Every night you're beginning to find your roomate's cat more and more attractive.

If you're on a diet, you cut back your food calories to allow for alcohol calories.

"Take me drunk, I'm home!"

You wake up naked lying in the corner of a bus depot.

You drink to get over a hangover.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who drink too much.





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die tonight for love.

[27 Aug 2005|12:23pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!

die tonight for love.

Random... [24 Aug 2005|11:52pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Saw Twiztid tonight....And I know I am not the only one who had the overwhelming urge to hurl myself on the stage and have Monoxide and Madrox tag team me.LOL.Can I get an AMEN SISTAH?!

5 would die tonight for love.

Ladies and Gentlemen we have FOUND the boyfriend. [11 Aug 2005|12:58pm]
[ mood | drained ]

So I just got a call from Whalley(New Haven jail.)Guess who it was?My boyfriend of course.He went to court high apparently last week and the judge was a bitch and sent him to jail and he's there until tomorrow morning when he has court and she will most likely release him tomorrow or next friday I guess.My phones in his property cuz his mom didn't take it.I guess he gave her my phone number but she prob lost it cuz she never called.I've been trying to call her but the phone is being gay.Well at least he's not in jail for 4 years.I hope he can get out tomorrow but he won't have a car so I dunno how I'd see him.The rental car obviously got returned by Shawn.He really thought I would've known by now from his mom or brother but I haven't called Shawn in a couple days anyways.So yep that's it.Jail.Wow.

Last night Jeff,Ant,and I drove around for a couple hours in Jeff's Firebird.It was fun as hell cuz he has a T-top and it was dark and the stars were nice and big and the cool air was blowing.It was sweet.That's actually all I did.

So I suppose there's nothing else to say now.Least I know Sunny's ok and he's completely got the drugs outta his system now.And they let him keep a picture of me and Amber(his daughter) that he cut into a heart so he can keep that with him when he's depressed or whatever.

die tonight for love.

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